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Struggling with "Survival Mode" 14 y
Struggling with past survival issues towards eating
As a kid I grew up dirt poor. A lot of time we had nothing to eat. I would search the house looking for anything to eat. I called this ”survival mode”. Because all I could think about was food, how to get food, where to find food.
I find that I have been struggling with this these past two days while trying to fast, the ”survival mode” has come back. I know that I am purposely fasting, but feel like I did when I was little and had no food. I have been searching my cabinets and fridge to find anything edible I can still eat. I got rid of most of everything prior to fasting.
I ended up eat ... read more Day 1 of Fasting 14 y
Resumed fasting, need to do a long one but will see...
Finally resumed fasting. Need to do a long fast of 20 days or more. Feel weak walking up stairs and have this short chest tightness/stiffness here and there.
SW:239
CW:235 visit the page hypothyroidism 14 y
now fasting for hypothyroidism too
My doctor wants me to get a thyroid test. He thinks I might have hypothyroidism. I scheduled the test for next week. I looked it up and have a lot of the symptoms. Which might explain why it’s been difficult for me to lose any weight even when I eat strictly and why I feel terrible.
I feel frustrated.
I guess I should do a long fast and see if it can straighten out my hypothyroidism. I don’t want to be put on a bunch of medications.
Starting a fast again tomorrow. Today I just had some brown rice, no oils or fat added. visit the page Ate something but will resume fasting 14 y
Messed up but not giving up yet
Yep. I was overcome with boredom and I ate some potatoes and hummus I had sitting in my fridge, I know that’s not a good way to break a fast, but it’s only been two days. I’m really disappointed in myself but will not give up yet. Continuing on with my fast.
SW:239
CW:232 visit the page Day 2 of Fasting 14 y
Still trucking despite insomnia
No appetite. Went to sleep and woke up thinking I slept a long time and but looked at the clock and only 3 hours had passed. Have these deep depressions under my eyes I guess from not getting enough sleep that look scary.
Not ready to give up yet.
SW:239
CW:232 visit the page Day 1 of Fasting 14 y
Down to 234. Feel sad.
No appetite rested but have not been able to sleep more than 2 or 3 hours straight at a time. In a blue mood. I really want to do this, so I’m pushing through.
SW:239
CW:234 visit the page Ready to fast 14 y
no appetite and ready to fast.
I have no appetite and feel pretty determined.
I ate some of the last of my food today because I didn’t want it to go to waste even though I didn’t feel like eating.
It’s going to be hard drinking just water for a long time. I am so used to only drinking diet sodas or flavored drinks.
It’s also a good time for me to fast. I am not working right now and can rest if I need to.
I know some of the weight I lose will come back once I start eating again, but think it’s interesting to post weight loss anyway, since I am so overweight.
Starting Weight:239 visit the page About 14 y
I'm starting out by having lemon water for a while first, then will ease into just water.
I have started eating a natural vegan diet, not perfectly, sometimes I slip up but most of the time I’m eating right. I lost 10 pounds slowly changing my diet (but need to lose about 100).
The problem is I can’t get over my addiction to diet coke. It’s not just a caffeine addiction it’s more than that. I get sad and irritable if I don’t have it in a while then when I give in a drink it I feel elated, then crash. And go in this cycle.
So I am going to do a fast to get rid of my diet coke addiction. I want to do a long one but won’t make it arbitrary.
I’m starting out by having lemon wate ... read more |