Date:   6/7/2006 7:53:45 AM ( 18 y ago)
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I am *sensitive* and use food to numb that *frequency*. I think it is part of the human condition...perhaps something we all are capable of, but we "deaden" ourselves to it because it is difficult to describe. My daughter is also sensitive, and I describe it as a way of processing. Just like some people can see the world in terms of music and they become musicians. Painters see the world in terms of color and texture and etheral concepts they express in different medium. We look at something painted and it *evokes* feelings in us. This is that place in me which I am trying to dust off or shine up or get out of the box I have stuck it in. We do not talk about that part of us which cries when we see someone beat, or when a baby is born, or when someone loved by us dies. But it does get toxic too in its own way, or perhaps, desensitized would be a more appropriate word.

My first long cleanse, after the third hurricane, that part of me which could almost hear the gurgling of people dying in Katrina, and the prayers and cries of those stuck in attics and the horses drowning and all the other beings transitioning and in fear, and finally, I could only feel such despair that I could no longer fast and felt I had to shut this off. The psychic tension became so intense, I broke my fast before I had intended to. It is great to fast for 30 days and there were plenty of benefits but I did feel I had failed because the cleansing I really needed, that inner cleansing, I ran away from.

So, I think that could be what you are trying to describe to me...that "empowered feeling", especially as a woman, (mostly cause I am one), that embraces and supports life and nurtures it. We need more of *that* energy today in this world to help solve problems, and yet, so many just sit in front of the television and numb out the voice with distractions, food being a huge one, if not the biggest.

Perhaps that IS why major religions do encourage fasting. Growing up Catholic, we did fast and also deprived ourselves on friday to *hone* that part in ourselves which grows compassion for the human condition.

This cleanse, is like going back and sitting next to that fire and finding peace within and finding that power to change and to accept and surrender to a higher power which is all of the things I wish to emulate and be in my life, albeit in a human way...ggg. It is mentoring ourselves so-to-speak.

So yes, I wish you much luck in your own "dive" beneath the surface to peer into the well of your being.

Many blessings,
Zoe

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