Hey there,
Your post really struck at my heart. I know you're in a lot of pain right now. First, you can call me friend anytime because that's what I hope to be to everyone. I don't like the word acquantance.

Most importantly, God has NOT forgotten you. THAT is impossible. Scripture:

Surely he [the righteous man that fears the Lord] shall not be moved for ever: the righteous shall be in everlasting remembrance.
Psalm 112:6

But Zion said, The LORD hath forsaken me, and my Lord hath forgotten me. Can a woman forget her sucking child, that she should not have compassion on the son of her womb? yea, they may forget, yet will I not forget thee. Behold, I have graven thee upon the palms of my hands; thy walls are continually before me.
Isaiah 49:14-16

Are not five sparrows sold for two farthings, and not one of them is forgotten before God? But even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not therefore: ye are of more value than many sparrows.
Luke 12:6, 7

For the LORD will not cast off his people, neither will he forsake his inheritance.
Psalm 94:14

...I will not fail thee, nor forsake thee.
Joshua 1:5

...for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.
Hebrews 13:5

For he hath not despised nor abhorred the affliction of the afflicted; neither hath he hid his face from him; but when he cried unto him, he heard.
Psalm 22:24

When the poor and needy seek water, and there is none, and their tongue faileth for thirst, I the LORD will hear them, I the God of Israel will not forsake them.
Isaiah 41:17

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My dear friend from the island Yap used to say, "when you feel that God is far away, you need to first try to figure out who moved. You or God? It's not in God's charecter to leave His people." Sometimes, we have ways of becoming distant. Then before we know it, we've backsliden and can't figure out which way is up.

As far as your bulemia goes, it's not food that's your enemy. It's the Enemy that's your enemy. It's also our free will/our choice to binge and then our remorse/regret which causes us to purge. This is a spiritual issue. When we're not being filled with what really fills us (GOD) we try other things to fill us. For some of us, it's food (as I raise my hand up) that we think will fill us.

As far as your health when you are dealing with bulemia, I'm sure you know many of the effects, but one little known effect is that it causes your electrolites to get off balance. You throw them off just enough and you can go into a coma and not know when you'll wake up. Comas are nasty things for yor body.

Fasting will not help your situation. You first need to come back home (with God) and start getting filled by the Living Water- who is God. Scripture:

Jeremiah 2:13
"My people have committed two sins: They have forsaken me, the spring of living water, and have dug their own cisterns, broken cisterns that cannot hold water."

John 4:11-13
11"Sir," the woman said, "you have nothing to draw with and the well is deep. Where can you get this living water? 12Are you greater than our father Jacob, who gave us the well and drank from it himself, as did also his sons and his flocks and herds?"

13Jesus answered, "Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, 14but whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life."

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Try to find a good Bible believing church where you are. Perhaps meet with the Pastor and tell him where you are in your life. Start reading the Word.

I know this may not have been what you wanted to hear, but I really felt this is what you NEEDED to hear.

I'm here for you, I know what you're going through. I will also e-mail this to you, but wanted to post this here so that others, who might also be in your situation can read it. :)

Take care and keep in touch.