great news on the weight loss but more important on how you feel. i think you really need to find what works for you and go for that. alcohol is my demon too. in that i know it is empty calories but it is a nice treat on the w'ends. i really think the oxypowder helps you get that regular thing. after i did the 7 day cleanse on it i stopped and have never being so regular. of course eating healthier food deifnately makes the difference. now i have my wedding story for you. i have been married now for nearly 14 years. my husband and i where 21 adn already had our first son. i was probably a size 8 - altohgou its funny becasue i never really even cared what size clothes where i just bought waht fit! anyway we got married for all th wrong reasons. i felt pressure from family community being unwed adn he felt like he had to do the right thing. we ahve being thru ups and downs along the way the first 4 years are a bit of a blur do to having 2 more kids movign house every 12 months and changing jobs. we nearly separated 10 years ago but we finally worked it out. we made a pact with each other to make it work and make each other happy. probably 3 years after that i felt like he was my absolute everything and dearly wanted to marry him. we often joke now and still say hey wanna marry me. the thing is i was up to a size 16 then and never happier, we were never happier. my wedding photos i have i look good , size 8 but not happy there is no sparkle in my eyes liek there is now. i wish that had of being my wedding day photo no matter what size i was. with a sparkle in my eyes happy and meatn to be there. i hope this makes some sense to you. im not saying weight is not important- obviously it is due to my recent activiteis. but having a great relationship and working on that and yourself is the most important. i hope your wedding photos are of a glowing bride. oh and i hope this hasnt come across as me complaining - i am the luckiest woman alive. i wish you and your partner all the happiness i have expereinced in my married life. the downs are bad but man it is so worth it when you come out the other side.