- day 11 by gwen17
18 y
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Blog: The Cleanse of Masters: 10 to 15 days
So yesterday (day 11), I don't know what happened to Mr. Will Power. I seriously can't believe that this happened!! What happened, you ask? Well, I had this urge to bake, so I made this pumpkin butter cake since, you know, it's around Thanksgiving. Well, I had every intention to bake it, and then immediately pawn it off on my friends. Well, I was taking it out of the pan, and it was definately still too warm. So a piece was all broken and ugly. I sat there staring at it, and then just decided to eat it. So I ate a piece. Then I panicked. One, I thought my body wasn't going to be able to handle it and I was going to get sick. Two, I had been absolutely PERFECT for 10 1/2 days. Why now? I'd even wanted food way worse before, and still managed to tell myself no. Why did I do it? Three, I'd felt so damn confident in myself and my abilities to make it to 14 days 24 hours prior! What happened??? So, needless to say, that night I felt physically sick (just a little upset tummy, nothing major), but more so sick at myself, that I couldn't continue! Then this morning I decided that 10 days is a valid accomplishment, and today I would start to break the fast. So I've had some orange juice and a BM where some solid stuff came out! That was a weird feeling!
I can't help feeling disappointed in myself, but I have to remind myself from time to time that 10 days is still a very long time to go without eating solid food. I just hope some of my bad eating habits have been cured for the long run. I realize that this is still going to take some work on my part, but I hope this kick start to better eating habits works, at least a little, even though I ended it badly.
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- 10 days is fabulous! by pisces
18 y
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you did a GREAT job!! 10 days is a LONG time to not eat food. Dont beat yourself up over it... you still have a few days of oj which will put you at day 14 anyway before you get to eat a full meal.
be proud. you are one of the few people in this world who have fasted successfully for 10 days.
YOU ARE AWESOME!!!
:)
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- congrats by bluenile
18 y
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OMG - I just started the cleanse today and though it is 3:30 I feel guilty b/c I don't know what the heck I am doing and only have had 1 cup of the lemonade.
i got caught up in your blog and want to CONGRATULATE you!
10 days is my goal and your blog and honesty was incredible.
i was going to keep a journal to myself but i think i might create an online one and as you said make it for yourself and not sure if anyone else would read it!
Well i read it and you ROCK!
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