- and why not curb the eating disorder while we're at it? by takemeawaygod
18 y
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Blog: Anonymous young lady dives into the Abyss of God...? ? ?
| It wouldn't hurt to mention, this is the 2nd day I've staved off the urge to eat compulsively. I tend to do this when my life gets stressful, i.e. being between jobs. I recognized that it's just an effort to control my source of unhappiness, that it doesn't work and that I'd rather just feel the pain now then put it off and feel numb and full of self-loathing. It's with God's help, I swear. I asked God for help removing my compulsion to eat when disturbed. I deeply decided I was willing to feel the pain of whatever I'm trying to suppress. then last night, this old man acquaintance insisted on walking with me all the way home. I felt agitated with my inability to bring myself to shoo him away. I like and have compassion for him but Really wanted him to go away. I realized upon getting in the door that I was agitated cuz part of me wanted to stop and buy food to eat and hate myself for, and I didn't want him to see me do it. And then I was grateful for him and all of it. I hope I'll be able to stick with it, and now I have this burning fever, but either way, it seemed noteworthy.
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- DO not hate yourself!! by kerminator
18 y
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You must always first learn to love yourself, then you can learn to love others ...
If you can love yourself then you will become able to help others and this is the supreme test of self worth!! Look through some of my past blogs here and on my web site blogs @www.simplytruth.com
Live is an adventure; to be lived by you... So get yourself together, and seek God's help to direct your path...
See Ya... Kermit
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- Re: DO not hate yourself!! by takemeawaygod
18 y
961
| you're right. on a certain level it's blatantly obvious that nothing will be gained by hating one's self. still, it doesn't hurt to hear it reinstated. A lot of the fear and self-loathing that's been buried for years post-traumatically under layers of more superficial fear/self-loathing is just coming up to surface. I trust God to remove it
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- Re: DO not hate yourself!! by kerminator
18 y
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You are correct Lady!!
As we move through life, we interact with those who cross our pathway... This is where we will leave our foot prints...
So as my Grandmother used to say " Don't sit around feeling sorry for yourself... Get up and do something for someone, that is what living is all about!!"
Keep on being yourself and lets move ahead together...
Kermit
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- This kind of honesty is a gift(and a sign of merit:of goodness banked in... by #59694
18 y
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that should bring a great sense of peace and Grace at times--just enough to pull you on. And that's a very solid bridge, though it sways and may be shifty and delicately slatted like bamboo, with light flashing through in glimpses of brilliance
and dappling the shadows.
You walk, and you walk on... :-)
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