- Time to give my digestion a rest ,and help my body heal :) by dizzypanzer
12 y
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Blog: 30 day water fast attempt :)
| Im sad to say I cant seem to eat these days without it wanting to come back up...my insides often hurt and I wonder if internal fat is pressing on my digestive system.From the extremely unattractive way a lot of my weight is carried,in the belly,I know thats a sign of very unhealthy fat surrounding my internal organs.The worst is not just being obese and looking like a stranger to myself,but the added pain and discomfort that makes the simplest of tasks so difficult-you know pain ,hard to move,breathing hard like Ive just done a marathon when Ive been doing housework..not good and kind of embarrassing.Im hiding away at home ,not wanting to go out anymore.Dont want anyone to see me.Its depressing and if I wanted to listen to my negative self talk Id say it seems hopeless and why bother.But Im sick of feeling that way.I have tried fasting before,with mixed success mostly because sometimes I would stick to it and sometimes I would make excuses...and not complete my fast and return to eating out of control.The problem being I had no real plan for after my fast and needed to learn more about the battle within that happens to a food addict when fasting.You really need to have more than motivation,you need resolve.A decision to stay at it,regardless of the odd stuff up-thats the enemy to me,that moment you break fast and instead of minimising its impact just giving up and diving back into the bad old ways.I need to be patient!!!I need to stop expecting perfection from myself...its the overall effort that matters!! It gets the results,I know that from experience.Im starting on water fast tomorrow,if anyone reads this and happens to be fasting too,Id be happy to hear from you :) Im 95 kilos or 209.5 lbs at present 167 cm ,about 5 ft 6?? tall,female,late thirties.waist 47 inch or 120cm (see what I mean!!) Im not waiting to get over the 100 kilo mark to put a stop to this madness !!!
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- Re: Time to give my digestion a rest ,and help my body heal :) by dizzypanzer
12 y
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| Starting tomorrow,not much prep although stopped smoking and drinking since new years so that will probably help...Im feeling a little nervous but want to do this.I need a good kickstart towards losing weight and better health ;)I think I will feel a whole lot better once Im actually fasting,that has happened in the past.Im not too worried if I cant quite do 30 days first off...I might have to work my way into it but the goal is to eventually have the strength to do that,even if I have to dabble in some intermittent fasting to begin with..Ill just see how I go as I dont want to stress myself out trying to be perfect :)
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